Go figure

And I tried to hate.
Ridiculed myself.
Won’t accept fate.
Thinking I’ll fool myself.
And I tried to be;
stone hearted and strong.
And told myself;
it won’t pain for too long.
And I tried to throw;
every memory deemed shallow.
And I wept.
Even the worse I kept.
And I put;
myself to the endurance test.
life itself, such a pest.
Skies are black;
I see them blue.
You don’t have a clue.
I can’t…
Just can’t.
Doing what?
Go figure.

Varun Rajagopalan.